I found out a couple of weeks ago that my job will not be moving to Great Valley Pennsylvania. Instead my position will be merged into another department here. When I got the news I was stunned. In my discussions with the two VP’s in our division I sensed that they were expecting me to do back flips in excitement over the news, and maybe they were a little surprised and disappointed in my calm reaction to the good news. After a couple of days of allowing the news to sink in I began to feel little weird and couldn’t figure out why, but now I think I know what my problem is.
I dove head first into the swimming pool of the future and although this pool was filled with unanswered questions, this pool was fresh, exciting, exhilarating, passion filled, elevating, anointed, interesting, unfamiliar………………you know, everything my current job is not. I began to feel guilty because I know that it’s the favor of God that afforded me this opportunity, but I can’t help but think about what it would have felt like to sell our home here in Virginia and move to Georgia or Massachusetts. I even entertained the thought of moving a couple of hours north. Maybe I could have found a chaplain position with a police department. Instead I get to continue doing a job that has had all of the challenging aspects of it stripped away and shipped to other states and soon to other countries.
Fortunately I'm able to find comfort in three places. Third is in my life long desire to be every bit the man my father wasn’t by continually providing everything my family needs, Spiritually, physically, and Financially. The security afforded me in this position enables me to do that. Second is the opportunity to be a light to new crew of souls. My first source of comfort comes from a scripture I found some years ago that encourages me to use where I am to get where I want to be.
Art thou called being a servant? care not for it: but if thou mayest be made free, use it rather.
1 Corinthians 7:21 KJV